FknBucky

I have words for every situation.  I plan for words.  I go into every conversation knowing I can control it because I’m better with words than anyone else.  People that know me understand this to be true. It is why I write this blog.  I love words and I love to use them.  It is an outlet that allows me to be myself and express my feelings when I have the time to do so.

This week I was faced with a moment, a tragedy, a time in my life that words can not work for me.  I can’t explain it, I can’t understand it, and I certainly can’t make it better with words.  Sometimes life isn’t fair.  It makes no sense.  It hurts more than a bullet to the knee.  You hear words that cut your heart in half and there is no response.  Sometimes you write with tears in your eyes like I am now.  It isn’t easy, but it is the only outlet you know.

My family is the greatest.  They have supported me through the incredibly hard times I’ve had in my own life.  I can’t ask for a better group of people to love me and understand me.  When I see them in pain, I’m in pain.  We feel it together.  No one feels it more than the person next to them.  That is what makes family so special.  We do it together. 

The loss we had this week is unexplainable.  It makes no sense.  Period.  It is heart breaking to think about and will be for a long time. I have no words to make it better.  I have no words to spin the message and push an agenda that has nothing to do with the tragedy that happened.  Sometimes we have to sit back and understand that feelings not words are what are important.

We get caught up in the day to day bullshit.  Most of us forget what is really important and blow off the blessings we have daily.  The friendly hello from a neighbor.  The hug from a sister or brother.  The I Love You from someone that really means it.  Don’t waste your life. Don’t waste the precious moments you have with people that truly care about you.

We only have so much time on this Earth.  Believe what you want when it comes to the afterlife, but everyone must believe that you only have so much time.  Spend it helping others.  Spend it making yourself the best you can be. Don’t waste time waiting for the lottery to shine on you, MAKE the lottery come to you.  Be so remarkable that life has to give you incredible benefits.

My family is remarkable.  I’m blessed to have them.  We don’t take the time to say “I love you”.  We MAKE the time to say “I love you” because it is important every single time to say so.  Look at the person next to you and let them know how important they are. Don’t hold back and never wait for the special moment because it might not come.  Just appreciate those that love you right now.

Bucky

Monica you will be missed by everyone that was blessed enough to know you.  We will forever remember you and make sure that Aiden knows how much his Mommy loved him.  You were a special person that brought a light to all of us lucky enough to spend time with you.  Thank you for the memories.