Posts Tagged ‘anger



18
Feb
21

RIP Rush

Wow. I used to think that 70 years old was completely ancient, but the closer I get to it the less “old” it really sounds. I have no idea how old I’ll live to be and to one hundred percent honest I don’t care. I am in no hurry to cash in my chips, but hey at 42 I’ve had a lot of fun in this world. I’ve made some amazing friendships with people that I simply adore. I can go to any state, almost any city in the USA, and reach out to an old friend that will invite me in without worry about how many years it has been since we’ve last spoke. To me this is wealth, it is my value in the world, and I believe I am undoubtedly one of the richest men on the planet. If you woke up tomorrow morning with absolutely nothing how many doors could you knock on for help??? Whatever that number is, that is your value in the world. Truth is hard sometimes.

I spend a lot of time in my car. I have listened to Rush Limbaugh plenty throughout my years. Many times disagreeing, but I’m happy to hear ANY point of view as it gives me things to think about which is my favorite hobby. Thinking. Analyzing peoples views with facts and how my personal history and experiences shape who I am as a person. That is the beauty of it or what is supposed to be in America. This cancel culture to anyone with an opposing view is dangerous and ugly. You don’t win an argument by screaming SHUT UP at the person you are debating. If you are so much more correct than the other side “use your words” as we tell three year old children.

I read EVERYTHING I can daily. I sponge it up and then form an opinion based on what I want. At 42 years old you aren’t going to tell me anything or somehow shame me into changing my mind. I have an incredible amount of respect for Rush Limbaugh and it is a really sad day. I have looked at some left leaning websites, TV channels, and have been appalled at the vile and incredibly awful things people had to say. Even great generals in wars have respect for the other side and treat each other in a humane way. It is easy to be kind to people that think exactly like you, but the true character of a person is how they treat people they disagree with. There are a lot of people who failed that test and to me it is so sad.

Take politics out of it and Rush gave MILLIONS to different charities along with his time which we know is our most precious asset. Disagreeing with someone is not a reason to speak ill of the dead, to wish someone burn in hell, and all of the other insanely mean comments I have read the last 24 hours. This entire holier than thou BS with people somehow believing they are going to OUT HATE the people they have differing opinions with is crazy time. Hate is hate. If you are spewing that crao out there you are no better than the people you are supposedly “HATING FOR GOOD. Can there be a stupider sentence?? I’m hating for a good cause Bucky. Nope you’re fucking moron. Sorry Mom, that needed an F bomb.

Rapist and murderers on Death Row have to be treated with respect you scream and with the same breath you scream Rush Limbaugh was the DEVIL and needs to burn in hell!! How many millions have you given away to help those less fortunate?? How many volunteer hours you clock this month?? Nope you’re a keyboard warrior thinking somehow you are better than everyone else because CNN told you so. Grow up. You’re an intolerant asshole screaming like a small over tired child and I hope you take a step back to witness yourself.

Regardless of where you fall on the political spectrum the world lost someone great yesterday. Either a great foe or a great friend. It doesn’t matter, the same amount of respect needs to be shown to them. You don’t do it for Rush Limbaugh or the person that has passed on, you do it for yourself. It takes a much bigger person to say “he was a worthy adversary and I will greatly miss debating him.” To type mean and hateful things does nothing but show me the true character of a person and that deep down anger and negativity is not needed in my world. You stay over there with your 2 “friends’ and have you’re little hate filled Victory party that someone is dead you disagreed with. Be sure to judge everyone else by your incredibly low moral bar you have now set.

So be respectful. You can change the name in this blog from Rush to Obama, Jimmy Carter, or even Nancy Pelosi and the message is exactly the same. All of these people have actual loved ones at home that depend on them, care about them, and are grieving right now. Is it so hard to just shut your judging, self appointed better than everyone else status, and simply say RIP. I have no problem pissing people off with what I say or do and most times I do things simply to get you to react exactly as I thought you would. You have a meltdown, call people names, and then do all you can to make sure that opposing thought is silenced. Silence people by being the bigger person and show the next generation what it is to be respectful of those you disagree with. That is called grace and using it is awesome.

Let me know exactly how many minds you’ve changed by screaming “shut up” at someone. I’d bet everything I have possession wise that number is zero. Of course it is their fault because you’re perfect. Nope you’re a jerk. Okay I’ve beaten that horse to death. Here is the point today. Simply look at the positives in moments like this. It is the correct thing to do no matter how hard you think it is.

RIP Rush Limbaugh. My thoughts and prayers to your family that is trying to make sense of the loss they have just experienced.

If you feel like doing something mean or typing something negative walk/roll away and find someone to do something kind for. You’re inner person with thank you for not planting a few more negative seeds (reference to yesterdays blog) and just maybe someday we can all have a civilized talk about what to do to make the world better. Actually no, we don’t need another conversation. You and I simply need to be kind to each other, those around us, and most importantly be over the top kind to people you disagree with. Watch their reaction.

I appreciate you all. If you have a meltdown and say ”I’m never reading another blog Bucky“ then enjoy that.

Do random acts of kindness and expect nothing in return.

FknBucky

29
Jan
21

Pull your pants up

Okay it isn’t morning anymore, but I went back and forth on publishing this. I question how much I want to share about my personal shit, but in the end if I can help one person say “You know I could do better..” then it is completely worth it.

Friday morning. I’ve been up for a few hours already as my leg spasms have been brutal lately. They will literally kick nonstop until I get up. Worst alarm clock ever. The smile you see me with takes work. It is easy to be in a pissy mood or upset at things that are not perfect in life. It isn’t like I wake up, put my happy to be paralyzed pants on, and come out into the world to be an inspiration to you. Nope that is not how it works.

Usually my legs start kicking around 4 am. This followed by me rolling over 20 times praying I’ll find the perfect position to let me sleep another couple hours. It has been 18 years and that position is still a mystery to me, but I’m no quitter and still try every morning. Once I get angry enough I usually curse my legs, the bed, air, Obama, Trump, and anything else I can think of until I focus on Annabel. Then I have to use my nice voice or she thinks she is in trouble. Next time I train a dog I’m going to make yelling angry Bucky my normal voice and she will be in trouble when I start talking like a pansy.

I usually spend 10-15 minutes trying to get my pants on first thing in the day. My spasms make it extremely difficult as they fight me every inch. Annie also thinks my pants are the greatest tug of war partner ever. I mean my legs kick at her while she is fighting my pants so she is like game on!! It is funny cause I tell her no every time, but she always be back again. I guess she is no quitter either. My morning spasms are so strong that I have to back up next to a wall, my bed, or anything while putting pants on because they will spasm violently causing me to fall over backwards. This has happened more times than I can count. When I go over backwards I know my head is going to hit hard and then right after my paralyzed leg/knee comes down also hitting me square in the nose which freaking hurts. This creates next level anger and cursing. A kid once asked me how many swear words Murphy knew. I answered all of them.

I have my moment laying on the floor, then i figure out a plan to get back into my chair, and get it done. I don’t share this for sympathy or for anyone to say “oh poor Bucky” because that is not needed. I share for two reasons with the first being getting things out of my head. Once I tell someone or put it down on paper I can forget about whatever it is that has my panties all twisted up. The other reason is it is good for everyone to be reminded that your “stuff” is not all that bad. Whatever you have going on it can always be a 1,000 times worse. So enjoy your Friday. Enjoy your weekend. Most of all enjoy your life.

It is always a choice on how you approach the day. How you interact with other people is a choice which you get to make every single day. If you have been a negative asshole (You know who you are) your entire life the best thing is you can change TODAY. Boom just like that. Good things come to those that expect them. I’m not going to let something as trivial as putting my pants on ruin my day. That would be be stupid. How does that conversation go??

Person: “How you doing Bucky?”

Me: “Worst day ever. I had a hard time putting my pants on. My life sucks.”

Person: “Ahh okay. Well I got to go. Hope you get better.” Walks away muttering “Fucking weirdo.”

Just doing that there makes me able to see things for what they really are. Stupid little things that need to be forgotten the moment it is over. Not dragging that shit around with me all day. If you read the blog about anger you will get this reference. I take that anger brick about pants and I throw that bitch back. I’m blessed in the fact I have pants. I have a ton of them. High quality pants. I grew up poor on the farm with only 2 pairs of pants. Good pants for church and barn pants that were covered in shit all the time.

I am not willing to give up the good things I have in life because putting pants on is hard. It most likely isn’t pants in your life, but there is something that gets you daily. Choose to let it go instantly. Don’t let it grow roots or start attaching itself long term. Identify whatever that shit is and say okay that happened, but I’m moving on with a smile. Take this exact moment to do a random act of kindness for a stranger. You will forget about all the trivial shit in a heartbeat.

Do kind things. Always. Life will be instantly better.

FknBucky

23
Jan
21

Drop the Anger

I wasn’t going to post this or talk about it actually, but I do believe a couple people I have talked to today need to hear it. I was walking Annabel thru the neighborhood behind my apartment last night. A policeman pulled up next to me and gestured for me to come over. Once there and wondering what the hell this was about he said “Do you know or have you seen a black child around 10-12 years old riding around on a black and white bicycle. I could tell by the look on his face that things were not good.

The child was in an accident and they didn’t know who his parents are. Like most good people I wanted to help and wished I knew who they are, but I didn’t. I don’t believe the kid made it just by the body language of the officer. He drove away and I was left there on the side of the road with my thoughts. My heart broke for people I don’t know and will most likely never meet. In that moment I knew their life was going to change in a horrific way, but they didn’t.

I hear my friends complain about some very trivial shit. It gets old I’m not going to lie. Most people by the time they reach my age have had multiple horrible things happen to them and certainly every one of them knows someone that has had tragedy hit home. Here is the point which happens to be the same one I make every other day. Life is short. Life is sometimes hard. Very hard. It is also incredibly beautiful when you take the time to notice.

It comes down to the fact that at any moment the life you know now can be forever changed. I can’t tell you how to live, but I know I’m not going to carry around a big bag of anger around with me. To me life about going from great event to great event in life, but when you are dragging this anger around it takes a lot longer to get to the next great event in your life. Just set that bitch down and pick up the pace. Happiness is there waiting for your angry dumbass to show up. The party started a long time ago, and every little anger brick you pick up just makes you slower and slower.

Live everyday like it might be your last. Treat people the way that you want them to remember you. Have some fucking fun!! To be honest many times I write these things to remind myself. I’m as guilty as everyone else of letting stupid things get me. Everyday is a blessing. Remember that and try to live like that.

FknBucky

25
Mar
20

Love your neighbor

94BDEF4A-E134-45E0-AB4A-D44FF8BA54B0Happy quarantine.  Maybe with everyone stuck inside more than three people will actually read this.  Desperate times..  I have been inside my apartment now for about nine days.  I went to McDonalds this weekend to get a Big Mac simply because I had to do something.  It is weird seeing people, I usually want to talk to them, now I have anxiety and must get away.

I have decided that I will do the right thing and stay put.  I don’t want to drag this virus to a relatives house in another part of the country even though I would love to be with them than here alone.  I have plenty of food, TP, guns, and ammo.  This means I can wipe my ass, while eating a burrito, and shoot you at the same time.  I love America.

I’m amazed at such a trying time to still see people arguing on FB about this and that.  We are in a time where we all need to come together and make things more tolerable for those around us.  People are hurting.  Take a second before hitting send on that next comment and enlightening the world your negative shit opinion, take a breath and think how is this going to make the situation better????  Regardless of what side you are on or how noble, correct, and perfect you are the fact is negativity is negativity.

Find a way to change your thinking while we are stuck inside with nothing to do.  Instead of getting pissed off the rest of the world isn’t just like you try to wish people a safe time and that you’ll be praying for their family.  Imagine if everyone did that.  What you put out always comes back.  You know you’re a good person so now is the time to act like it.  We can’t give hugs right now, but you can certainly say a kind word.  It is free too so your non working ass has no excuse about not being able to afford being kind.

This is what we can all try, God/Bing Bang Theory knows we have plenty of time on our hands.  Right before you blast that comeback out that will put that SOB in his place because he/she deserves it for being sooo stupid take a step back.  Once a day at least take a large step back.  Then erase the negative, take the high road, and make it positive.  There are a lot of people suffering and scared right now needlessly.  We have plenty of resources in this country for everyone to have TP, Food, and shelter.  Stop using your energy to throw toxic BS out on the internet trying to change someone’s mind that is 1,529 miles away and look around your own neighborhood/town.

Once you open your eyes and look for ways to have a POSITIVE impact on the world around you plenty of opportunities will show up.  Trust me you can take a day off from arguing on FB. In fact the world most likely will be better for it.  I’m as guilty as the rest of you and write this as a reminder to myself to not get sucked into the negative rabbit hole but rather find ways to help out those less fortunate than myself.  You can make a difference if you only try.

Think about it,

FknBucky

17
Feb
16

When I go driving….

th-3Alright I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, down in my heart.  Ha ha.  Just kidding its more like the rage, rage, rage down in my fist.  I’m foaming at the mouth, trying to get this beat my head against the wall frustration out of my system.  I’m baffled that the world is full of so many stupid, stupid, one more time stupid people.  That came out wrong.  What I meant to say is  “Jessica Alba is freaking hot.” 02_jessica_alba_2945

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Okay so we are going to start small here because most of you have a brain that is only using about 7% of its potential.  Lucky for me 4% of that is already drunk so we are on the same level.  I just called myself stupid in case you missed that.

Driving is a privilege and one that everyone needs to start taking seriously.  I’m baffled at how many of you 3%’ers are glued to your phone as I cruise by you in the right lane.  If you are looking over your right shoulder at someone pass you then immediately pull over, get out of your car, and promptly th-1kiss your own ass.  Don’t worry this will be easy because your head is already stuck firmly up in there.  I just wanted you to pull over in case you enjoy it.  Ewww.

It isn’t rocket science and you’re not a cop.  You are not on the road to make sure I observe the posted speed limit.  You are free to follow the laws of this country and I’m free to break them.  So as my man Ludacris says “Move Bitch, Get out the WAY.”  Here is the fact of the matter.  I’m going to watch for my moment and then floor it, pass you on the right side, and then cut you off anyway while giving you the “You’re number 1 salute!!”  Do the world a favor and save both of us the aggravation.  Just pull to the right.

For those of you that just said “I know like, I hate it when like, people drive all slow in the fast lane.”  I want to thchew your head off like Rick ate that bastard on the walking dead.  Let me make this perfectly clear.  There is NO FAST LANE.  It is a passing lane.  That means you pass the car in front of you and then your get out of that lane.  I don’t care if you are doing 10,000 miles an hour.  Pull left, pass car, and then get back over to the right. I might be doing 10,010 miles an hour and I don’t want to slow down because you’re an idiot.

Okay now that you have decided I’m an asshole and you will never get out of the way, let me explain in nicer terms.  If you don’t learn to let other drivers by sooner or later someone that isn’t as polite as I am is going to shoot you in the face with a large caliber handgun.  This might sound bad, but the real travesty is bullets are expensive. Then we will all dance on your corpse singing a made up song about how much we hate you.

Ahh I’m starting to feel a bit better, but tomorrow I will be back on the road with you.  We will get along fine until you decide to pass the car in front of you doing one mile an hour faster than said car.  It will take you six miles to finally get almost past this other car and th-2then that car will speed slightly up and extend this little auto line dance on down the freeway.  Meanwhile me and the 27 other cars stuck behind your dumbass are thinking about how we can build a time machine, travel back to the 1800’s, and kill your entire bloodline.  Thats right by this time killing you isn’t good enough.  I want the whole family, the history of your family, and that girl you hooked up with in college just in case her out of wedlock kid might be yours.

So my new friend (I use that term loosely) when you show up at the pearly gates and St. Peter says “what brings you here?”  Feel free to reply with the truth “I’m a selfish, ignorant, dipshit that never took the time to learn the correct way to drive on a freeway with others.  I came across FknBucky and he straight up said “Fuck it” and killed my worthless ass.

Booom!!!

If you spend anytime at all driving across this great nation I know you feel my pain.  Please share this document in hopes of educating others before it is too late for them.

 

FknBucky

 

 

 




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