Posts Tagged ‘hope

18
May
25

GOD’S IN CHARGE

Go back and read Ice Cream Satan first. If you dare….

Been a few days. The whole parking thing really got to me. I don’t expect most of you to truly understand, but it becomes psychological warfare at times over those damn blue man spots. I’ve spent $1,500 in fines a towing fees since moving to Charlotte for parking in handicap spots and forgetting to put up a placard, having to swap my plate, or whatever other reason. Once my placard was only sitting on my dash, it snowed (usually happens 1 time a year here), covered the bottom of my windshield, and my car was towed costing me $300. The placard was clearly visible when I went to pick up the car because the snow had blown off the windshield during the drive.

I let it go yesterday and decided to move on. I gave those greedy pricks $180 of my hard earned money and closed the chapter on hating tow people. Not the book because I’m confident no matter how hard I try to never have an issue, I will slip up and they will be there to nail my ass to the cross. Never fails. In order to ensure I don’t get booted again I had to fast track my parking placards which meant I had to drive to my doctors office and wait for 2 hours for her to sign a form. The only way she would sign it is if I promised to come back the next day for an official visit. So stupid, I agreed.

I went back Friday morning for the appointment. The first question was “What brought me in to see the doctor?” Sometimes I want to punch the world. After this intellectually exhausting talk I took Annie to a patch of grass we always play on when I go to this office. The last few years have had me at the doctor office a lot as some of you know. After playing for a bit I of course had to pick up after Annie which I always try to do, but someone else isn’t so great at picking up after their dog. I rolled thru their poo to pick up Annie’s poo. I truly don’t understand the universe sometimes and yes there is a bigger point to all this so hold on and be amazed.

A friend of mine that has a non-profit asked if I would speak at his fundraiser Friday night about volunteering and staying positive. Perfect timing right. I gave the talk, but forgot to turn the sound on so the FB live video was pointless although it did show me that all my dieting has been paying off. I’m clearly MUCH lighter in that video. In fact I was amazed by it. So much so that today when ordering groceries I ordered Ice Cream. I thought Eff this week, I deserve it, and got my two favorite flavors. Bryers Mint Chip and BJ – Half Baked. Both are delicious and I haven’t had sugar since Easter so why not cheat a bit.

Well God has a different plan. Say what you will, but there is real purpose going on here. I’m meant to do this darn pull up and learn from all this hardship. Maybe I’m being tested to get thru problems without grabbing a crutch. I hit submit on the order and then dozed off in my recliner while watching tv. I woke up to Annie barking at the door. Ugh I thought. I had to wake up from nap time and get the groceries inside. Can’t let the ice cream melt..

I brought all the bags in and thought “Hmmm where is the ice cream.” There was none. Both flavors I asked for were out of stock and the delivery company refunded my money instead of getting a replacement. I’m in awe of the situation actually. It never happens this way. All the fruit, veggies, chicken, and healthy crap I ordered came thru just fine. Only the sugar was canceled by Big Bang Theory. I took a screenshot of my phone once I double checked what happened.

I will end with this. Humanity failed me this week. I was let down by people I care about, people I don’t like very much, and people I’ll never meet. The common theme is people. They pushed me to a breaking point and I’m not proud of that, but it is reality. I also know I’m not alone and that all of you have been there and will be again someday. I say this to myself and you. God is in control. He has a plan. I will reach this goal and the others I’ve set for myself. When I am doing the pull up it will be because God’s hand is lifting me.

FknBucky

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05
Feb
25

Goggins

David Fucking Goggins. Wow. If you know the name then you know what is up. My sister in law gave me a book a few years back and told me to read it. I didn’t. In fact I unpacked that book when I got home, put it somewhere, and never saw it again. That was that. Around a year later I was scrolling IG and came across a video of someone talking to Joe Rogan about this crazy David Goggins guy. As I listened about him I thought “I have to know this person” so I googled him and started the research. I was instantly impressed and loved the fact this human existed.

I loved him so much that I had to tell my sister in law about this savage MF’er named David Goggins. She looked at me like I had a penis growing out of my forehead. It was at this moment I realized the book she gave me to read a year prior was the same one I was mansplaining to her. I’m awesome like this. Whatever. I just had to wait long enough for it to be my idea to learn about this badass human. Learn I did. I read both of his books and draw on his philosophy many times in my daily life. When you have to be a savage to simply get out of bed in the morning life hits differently.

I saw on the internet that Goggins was going to be speaking in Charlotte and immediately bought tickets to attend. It was with Aspire and if you have the opportunity to go please do. I decided to buy the advanced package so I could be up front where I belong. I’m way too good looking to be the back. Bucky is no wallflower. Front and center. Goggins came in, ran thru the crowd, and shook my hand as he went past me. I was elated to have this moment with someone I respect so much.

I can’t seem to type this damn paragraph. It keeps deleting. Four times now. I’m going to smash my iPad shortly. This blog is about to get real short or I’ll be spending $1,800 tomorrow. Goggins talked, then took questions, and I was the 3rd one to speak. I said “blah blah, you’re eff’ing great, blah blah, my story, and blah. I’ll post the actual recording on my IG tomorrow once I have time to collect it. A bunch of no longer strangers videotaped me speaking and sent it to me via text. At the end of my talking time I told David Fucking Goggins that I brought him a shirt and I’d be honored if he would take it. He did.

He then put it on in front of 3,000 people and continued his Q&A. I’m still a bit shocked it happened. I almost didn’t bring shirts with me, but at the last minute threw 2 of them in my bag. One I gave to David Meztler at lunch and the other to Goggins. About 10 minutes later Goggins looked right at me and said “I love this fucking shirt.” That is why I paid for the premium t-shirts instead of the cheap ones.

I need to write more, post more, podcast more, but right now I’m just happy. It was a wonderful moment in my life that I earned. Luck is simply when opportunity meets preparedness. Make your own luck. Read the books. Go to the events. Life hard. Be a savage. Man the F up.

Chase your dreams now. Tomorrow is not guaranteed.

FknBucky

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09
Aug
23

Hope

Time goes by so darn fast. A day here, a day there, a week, a month, and inevitably years.. I just like all of you allow myself to be fooled by the biggest genius I know. Me. If you don’t look up to yourself how can you expect anyone else to?? In this exact moment you still have time to change. I don’t know how much time you have, but as long as you’re alive there is always hope. Hope. Easy word to say, but sometimes when we need it the most, it becomes impossible to find. You look everywhere. In this spot and that spot, in this person and that person, ripping everything you know apart until you sit down out of breath and defeated. Funny and not funny, you had it the whole time. Inside of you. You simply forgot how turn it on.

How do I turn it on Bucky?? By believing in yourself. Confidence. Read the books. Take the classes. Find a mentor. Make yourself better. I write this “message” because I need to hear it. I need to be reminded. I haven’t posted in a long time. I’ve written a ton, but haven’t shared. I have to teach myself that I can get my point across in less than 1,200 words.

Turn your hope back on. Right now. Best way to create that spark is to give someone else hope. A hug. A compliment. A quick “I believe in you.” You are enough. The greatest thing about losing something is the fact you can find it.

FknBucky

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FknBucky the Podcast coming soon!! Listen in as I talk smack on EVERYONE, use the Bucky humor you know you love, and wrap it all up in a wisdom bow just for you.

11
Jun
22

A little Help

Hello my friends. Things have been crazy lately and I don’t think it is going to be better for some time. The cost of everyday items is out of control. I paid $91 to fill my van up yesterday. Unreal. It used to be $38 not so very long ago. I am a single man (cool chick wanted) that has been blessed with the opportunity to work for myself in a business I love. I’ve worked hard to get where I am and I’m very proud of it. I have been flat broke, homeless, and very worried about how I was going to eat that day. That is a scary place to be and I don’t wish that on anyone ever. That being said I have also always worked. I got a job where I could and a few weeks later I had money in my pocket. Just work. Any job. Millions of people are happy to help a person that shows they are willing to help themselves.

I wanted to keep it short today. I know people that are on or have been on a very strict budget. Doubling fuel cost, crazy food price increases, and the inflation hurts real people right now. I don’t care if you are liberal or conservative. NO ONE should be hungry in this country. Nancy has a $30,000 freezer filled with $12 a pint ice cream. Think she spends her night stressing about your family??? No one is threatening Mitch McConnell to turn off the power due to non-payment because he had to choose between buying food and paying the power bill. They both make me sick.

I want to offer that anyone having trouble buying food to email me or contact me. No judging. No one but me and you will ever know. I don’t need a pat on the back. I filled up a guys gas tank yesterday that tried to sell me a recliner that was in the back of his truck. He asked me if I wanted to buy it for $10 as I was getting out of my van and I quickly said no and made sure he knew I wasn’t interested. Then I heard him talking to someone else saying he needed gas money to get home. I dismissed him so quickly I didn’t see the whole situation. I felt very disappointed in myself blowing off another human in need. I gave him fuel and didn’t even ask his name. It didn’t matter, but the genuine look of appreciation and relief that his plea for help was answered. The horrible situation he was in was over. A random guy in a wheelchair was in position to help and he did.

I hope all of you take a moment to help someone in need. That is the only reason I share that story. The whole point is this. I will buy you groceries. No questions asked. No thank you required. I simply want to help others in need. Don’t watch the news. There are lots of good people in the world so I urge you to pay attention to them. There are ways to send food and that is what I’ll do. Please don’t be a jerk and ask for what you don’t need. I’m not buying you beer or sending cash to anyone.

On the flip side if you are able to help those in need please let me know. I only have so much I can afford to give personally, but I know there are others out there that have the means to help. NO ONE should go hungry. Adult or child. Share this blog. Write your own. Let us share the message that good people are out there and we can help each other.

Be Kind to Everyone.

FknBucky

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21
Apr
21

Respect One Another is the only way.

I have so much going on that I am having trouble finding time to write. I either try to slam something together or just don’t have the motivation. Maybe motivation isn’t the right word. I let my fingers type out the thoughts that are going thru my mind allowing me to vent certain things out or relay a message that I happen to be thinking about at the time I start to write. I have a lot of trouble commenting on the George Floyd matter because it is completely one sided. Either you agree 100% or you’re a racist bigot that should be killed. I’m not sure why there was a trial at all. They should have just dragged him out into the street and executed him in public. There was zero chance that verdict would come back any other way. Those jurors were scared for their lives and the lives of their families. I don’t blame them.

The mob got what the mob wanted. Now on to the next one. The thing about mobs is once they start getting their way they don’t stop. They get bigger, bolder, and sooner or later everyone realizes it is a problem. Well not really I mean history has taught us, the angry mobs never make poor decisions. Do not twist my words as I don’t give a shit about the cop who had his knee on Georges neck. I can’t for the life of me figure out what he was thinking or why he did that. I also don’t understand why George Floyd escalated that situation for 20 minutes and didn’t just sit down in the back of the cop car either. So many crap decisions were made that day and truthfully I wasn’t on the jury so I don’t have all the facts. I do know that a sitting Congresswoman made comments about being more confrontational if the verdict wasn’t guilty. Yeah I know. If you’re a Dem it is no big deal and if you’re a Repub then she should be censored. The President said it had to come back as guilty. I didn’t realize you and him were in court everyday.

It is a slippery slope. People of color have not always had any kind of “fairness” in the justice system, but every year we get better. If you don’t believe that then you’ve lost hope and we must blow the whole thing up. I see the world thru the eyes of optimism. It is sad to me to see so many pissed off people that think everything is against them for one reason or another. For any one of you I will trade this wheelchair for black or brown skin in a heartbeat. I have my own history and learning curve when it comes to race. I’ve always thought I was a pretty good person, but I had no clue about black struggles. I had my own struggles. White I got, privilege skipped me. I dare anyone tell me how “easy” of a road I’ve had.

You can’t DEMAND respect from the world. It simply doesn’t work that way. You can’t angry mob respect from the people you claim to want it from. Respect is given when it is received. Watching 22 year old white chicks screaming in the face of a black police officer calling him a “racist pig” is not going to make the world better. Maybe instead of running her big fat mouth she should sign up to become a police officer. Why don’t all of these protestors sign up and show the rest of us how easy it is??? The way that police are demonized in this current environment there will be a lot of openings. You couldn’t pay me enough to do that job. It is really easy to judge from the sidelines never putting your own ass on the line.

I told my brother I didn’t want to write about this because it is too emotional. After thinking about it I realized that is why I should write about it. There has to be a lot of changes made in this world before this problem will ever go away. There are two sides. Why on Earth would people who believe every cop in America is out to kill black people everyday, give them an opportunity to do just that by resisting arrest or not complying with an officers commands. As a parent why would you not tell your child to simply do as the police ask and then fight whatever it is in court. Becoming a martyr doesn’t help. You are dead. No coming back.

There are a lot of things we can do better in this country. There are also a lot of things we have gotten right overcoming the “old ways” of doing things. We will do better on this policing issues, but it has to come from both sides. Simply screaming at one side demanding they change will never get it done. The attacks on police and constant disrespect that is ignored by the media and politicians does nothing to help solve the problem. ***A moment of truth here.*** Pay attention to the next sentence. These people that benefit off of racial tension DON’T WANT to solve anything. They are only relevant if there is a problem. Problem goes away so does the fundraising, the angry mob willing to do your bidding, and the power they acquire while the world burns. There is no way they will willingly allow the flames to be put out. Regular people like you and me have to calm down, take emotion out of our thinking, and realize that we are all the same. Give respect and respect will be given.

I understand the hot button this issue is. No real change comes from allowing these assholes that benefit off of the chaos to manipulate us into hating each other. I say it all the time because it is true. Angry people are easier to control. Educated, calm, and people that think for themselves don’t fall for the fake outrage every three days.

Learn to Respect each other and that is when you see real change.

FknBucky

P.S. I don’t know what the solution is, but I do know hating each other is never going to give us one or even the opportunity for one. Everything is based on respect. If you give none you will get none. That is just the way it is.




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