Happy Saturday. One heck of a year. This one won’t be forgotten so quickly by me. Crazy how fast they go by. I sat with my Grandfather when I was around 16 years old and we were talking about him turning 80 years old. He was very easy to talk to, but the conversations rarely got into the “deep” territory where true feelings were expressed. That is the only way I can describe it, but hopefully most of you will know what I mean. Oddly enough many years later I would talk with my Grandmother after Pa passed away and those conversations were almost always “deep” making our relationship very strong. Anyway
Talking with Pa that day he said something to me. He said “I remember being your age, then I blinked, and now I’m 80.” His voice trailed off at the end and he seemed to gaze at something not in the room, not in the field out of the window, not anywhere, but inside his mind. He was looking at his life. The timeline he created in 80 years and how quickly happened. Thing is I could see it. While he stared at it, I stared at him soaking in those words he had just said. I heard the message loud and clear that day. Enjoy it, don’t waste it, do right in it because the ride is short, and no matter how many tickets you acquire there is no do overs. You can’t buy another turn.
I died in early May. Died. My doctor told me if I wasn’t such a tough SOB I would certainly be dead. Let that soak in. I’m 45. I don’t want my ride to end. Whatever age you are go do that thing you dream about. What the F are you waiting for?? I have friends I haven’t seen in over a decade that mean the world to me. I can’t understand how that much time has gone by. I used to see some of these friends every single day and we swore life would never get that busy we’d let forever go by. It almost did. Instead of reading this you could be telling a story about some dumb crap I did one night. Plenty of those to choose from, but maybe one day people will talk about something wise I said that helped change their life. Maybe that can be today. Life is short.
People say it all the time, but you don’t hear them. You buy your 12 pack, drive home drinking the first one, and then drink the rest while complaining to your neighbor how you never get the opportunities other people do. Hmmm. They are at home reading books and making themselves better every night. Wanna travel, go! Wanna make more money, learn. Wanna have a family, stop doing anal. Ha. The world is there for the taking.
It won’t be easy. Making changes rarely is, but remember someday soon you will be 80 and it will be your turn to gaze out. What will you see?? What will be on that timeline??
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Just a couple pics from my timeline:
My kidney drain. 
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