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Nov

Can you be trusted??

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Tags: anger, bad, beer, beverage, Busch, cooler, Crawl, creep, dead, dimples, dog, good, happy, Hate, kind, laugh, love, phone, sad, spider, Stage, trust

Saturday. I was up at 3:30 again last night. Not sure what that is all about, but I didn’t write. I watched “Kings of Pain” on one of my apps where they get stung by a centipede from Asian forest. That might be the grossest thing I’ve ever seen.

I can “man up” when needed to kill a spider, creepy, gross, and crawly thing, but deep down I hate them. Many a time in my life I’ve had to grab a spider with my bare hand and without a doubt every single time I was secretly wishing someone else would do it. In Cali when Alex lived with me, she screamed “spider”, and pointed at her bed when I rolled in there. Sure enough a big black jerk face spider was hauling butt across her blanket. There was no time to ponder what to do. If I lost sight of it there was a good chance I’d never find it and no one wants to sleep in spider bed. I just reached out, grabbed it, and killed it instantly by smushing it in my hand. I was a hero. I went into my room, did the “Willies” shake, and thought about how much that sucked.

Go back and read “EAT YOUR BEANS” part 1 and 2. Then make your sons read it. Everyday.

I had a message I wanted to get into on this blog, but not sure I want to just yet. Life has been difficult as usual lately. The ever easy days that I had in my twenties aren’t around anymore. Waking up next to a beautiful woman on a Saturday morning, who I would offer a ride home if she remembered my name, but didn’t reveal the fact that I didn’t own a car. The ride home was the Summit Stage. Man I was awesome. Dimples are amazing. I would just smile as I explained how to walk to the bus stop and Friday night hook-up would laugh at my cuteness…. I’d have a quick puff puff, head to the hill, and snowboard all day with my friends that would most definitely be there. We didn’t have cell phones, didn’t bother making plans, and just knew where my crew would be at. Great days.

I just thought about being 19 in Iowa. I had a great friend (still a great friend) that I hung out with every day. Back in those days we always had a cooler in the trunk filled with ice cold Busch Light. I don’t recommend drinking and driving so be sure to chug as much as you can while stopped at a stoplight or stop sign. Safety first. Can you imagine the agony of hitting a pothole and spilling your beverage. Take no chances my friends. Obviously I’m kidding. There are no stoplights on gravel roads. Shoot, got distracted there, okay now back on message. This friend and I would pick one another up daily. I would grab a drink from the cooler, always grabbed an extra one for my brother, put it in a coozie, and then set it under the passenger seat. When he got in the car without question he would reach under the seat and grab his can of thirst quenching super nectar. It was always there. When is the last time you had 1,000% faith a fellow human would have your back???

I haven’t thought about that in a long time. Pretty cool though. Okay, now it is time for me to explain how my story will give you something positive to think about today. Life is not about accumulating possessions. Many people don’t understand that. They just want “more” all the time. More money, more cars, more houses, more more more. Then they can show it off to you in an attempt to prove to you how important and great they are. I saw a interview with the artist PitBull talking about his 17 super cars. I’m not impressed. Just because you are financially successful in life does not automatically mean you are a successful human. You might have to read that sentence a couple times.

A successful life in my opinion is measured by relationships. Not Friday night hook-ups, but the true relationships you cultivate throughout your time on Earth. How many people completely trust you to follow thru every single time?? You can’t buy trust. You can’t borrow it. You can’t beg for it. You have to earn it EVERY single day. It isn’t a “when I’m in the mood” thing or “I’ll do it next week” kind of thing. Can you be trusted to kill the spider?? Can you be trusted to remember your friend when grabbing yourself a cold drink from the trunk?? Those are little silly things Bucky.

You are 100% correct. They are little seemingly trivial things, but how can I trust you with big things when you haven’t put the time in gaining my trust doing the little things. Yeah that is big deal. Spend your time on Planet Earth (a very short time in the big picture) acquiring trust not stuff. A new car is not as important as a friend KNOWING without fail you will show up in that new car to give them a ride to the airport at 4:30 AM.

This blog is so far away from what I planned to write. Not a problem as I simply type what my brain is saying. Be a person of value and not just a person that has valuable stuff.

Love Who You Are Today, Tomorrow is not Guaranteed.

FknBucky

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Nov

UnThankful

By Bucktown 1 Comment

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: apartment, bless, book, dog, family, friend, friends, good, happy, Hate, Holiday, home, husband, Life, love, random, read, sad, thanks, Thanksgiving, turkey, wife

Turkey Day. Family. Being thankful. I drove to Alabama yesterday which sucked. Too many other drivers on the road. I wish I could just zap them all to disappear like ships in the Bermuda Triangle. For the record, I hate people.

I say blah to Thanksgiving. We pass it over and head straight to Christmas anyway. Some say it is racist. A racist holiday to spend time with your loved ones and take a day to express your thankfulness for all the blessings in your life. When you explain it like that, it makes total sense. Stupid racist Thanksgiving people. I say we switch it up from now on.

Take this Thursday in November to be a selfish prick. Eat all you want, diets be darned, and fall asleep with your pants unbuttoned with the NFL games playing on TV. Make it 24 hours of all about you time. Thankful. Not today.

Instead of being thankful one day a year, how about we be thankful 364 days a year. Take the one day to hate on everyone, get drunk on wine all day, and eat a huge meal you most likely did not pay for or help prepare. Don’t thank the cooks. Eat with your hands after 7 tequila shots while cursing in front of the kiddos. I just described every holiday of my 20’s…

I just find it fake. It is like 9-11 when you post a “never forget” meme, but forget about it the next day. Did you donate to a fund to help first responders with illnesses directly from being at ground zero??? I’m making a point. I’m so “thankful” today. Tomorrow AM I will be complaining that I don’t have as big of a TV as my neighbor and that is society’s fault. My neighbor works overtime while I spend my free time drinking beer and smoking weed, but it is not fair he/she has a nicer car than I do.

Okay I’ve beat you up enough. You don’t need a holiday to be thankful and appreciate the blessings you currently have. You can start by no longer measuring your happiness with things. Happiness is a choice, an emotion that cost no money, and if you don’t have a lot of it the only person to blame is yourself. Be accountable for you and own your choices. Best part of that is every single day you can wake up and make new choices. Choose to read a book, take a class, call an old friend, end a feud with a loved one, or anything. Pick someone and do a kind thing for them randomly.

About a year ago I decided to send my niece handwritten letters for fun. Getting mail as a 7 year old is a pretty big deal. It takes 5 minutes to write up a message and maybe $.50 for a stamp. I wait for no holiday or birthday. I just do it. I put some cheap stickers in it and I’m told the excitement is massive when it shows up. I’ve gotten a couple letters in return, and it is pretty exciting to see a crayon colored butterfly mixed in with credit card offers and hospital bills. I’m thankful for those butterflies every time I open the fridge. Best art in my home.

My overall point is this. Make every day of your life Thanksgiving. Appreciate the blessings you have right now. A wife, girlfriend, kids, friends, family, food, clothes, shelter, neighbors, and all the rest. I come across a lot of unthankful people everyday and honestly it makes me sad. Negative energy is contagious. Here is a mind blowing thought. Positive energy is also contagious. What do you want to be known for??? If you want things to be different in the future change the decisions you make today.

I truly hope all of you have blessed day with friends and family.

Love Who You Are Today, Tomorrow is Not Guaranteed.

FknBucky

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Nov

Have some Class

By Bucktown 4 Comments

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: anger, boo, booze, class, dog, game, good, happy, Hate, home, kind, lose, love, NFL, Packers, sad, team, Win

Good Morning. I’m short on time, but not short on message. I watched the Packers lose last night for the 7th time this year and like everyone I was disappointed. Very very disappointed. Not with the team, but the fans that were in attendance for the game. When I heard the “boos” draining down on the home team because a play didn’t go your way>> What a bunch of whiny little pricks. Oh no, we have a losing season for the first time in what 15 years?? The players get paid millions Bucky so I can treat them like crap.

No they don’t and a person with character would never boo the home team over something so petty. The big names make millions, but a large number of players still make a few hundred grand a year. Yes that is a lot to many of us, but they earn it putting on a show for us every Sunday or in this case Thursday. Yes this team needs to work out the mistakes and timing, but to rain down the boos on National TV was a disgrace.

Rodgers was off and missed some throws. It happens. For the last 25 years the Packers have had a wonderful run with the Brett Farve era and then moving right into the Aaron Rodgers time. I mean look at Detroit. That is a team and fan base that has learned to lose every year over and over and over and over and over….. You could just go west and become a purple loving %#&*%^&#%*$*(#(#*&#^&&@#^!!!!! If you do this stay there. Stupid Vi-Queens..

I don’t have a ton of time today so this one is short. It is okay the message is clear. Have some class in life. Stand up tall and take the L like a ma…. I’m not going to be sexist today. Take the L like a stand up citizen. These players were out in 25 degrees and played their heart out. Here is a little thought for you. The other team gets paid to win too.

Have fun in life. Go to the game and appreciate it for what it is. An experience to come together as a community to support the home team. The outcome of the game is what it is. The players and coaches are the only ones with any control on that. You screaming “RUN THE BALL” from seat L420E doesn’t matter and will make zero difference.

Next time you buy tickets leave the “boos” at home, but bring the booze for the tailgate party. Please like and share, give 5 stars, or make a comment. 2023 will be a big year for the blog with your help. I can’t do it alone.

Go Pack Go!!

Love Who U R Today — Tomorrow is not Guaranteed

FknBucky

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Nov

Take Notice

By Bucktown 3 Comments

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: acknowledge, anger, bad, dog, good, happy, Hate, help, kind, Life, love, Notice, sad, take, talk

In my head I’m like why haven’t you been writing more. I wanted to follow up the other one the next day, but things just got busy. Then got busy again. Days go by so darn fast. I’m in Durham, NC at my favorite hotel at this time. It is a new AC and the rooms are perfect. I drove an extra eight miles just so I could stay here. The staff knows Annabel and I now so it is nice to come in the front door and see a friendly face. I have a rule about talking with people. The front desk guy, I want to remember his name, the guy taking care of a parking lot, and the maintenance crew at my apartment building. Well the current crew are not super observant. I had water all over my hallway and reported it. I got an email telling me it is the washing machine so it is my problem to deal with. They bought the washer so….. Yeah. I also thought there is no way. I got home and looked at it. The area around the washer was dry, but the hot water heater in the closet next door was in a pond. There was a frog. Some tadpoles and the Mexican kid next door asked if I would let him catch some catfish. I’m just kidding. He isn’t Mexican.

There was a bar we liked to go to prior to COVID stupidity. It was a very popular spot and the parking lot always filled up early. Every time I went there I talked to the parking guy. He had 3 kids and that was his 2nd job to make enough money to take care of them. In the cold, the rain, the heat, humidity, or whatever else there was he was sitting there protecting the parking lot. Not to mention the jerks that said bad things to him cause they didn’t get a parking spot. Like somehow it was his fault. I could relate. I know what it is like to have more bills than money, I know what it is like to be hungry or eat the same thing for a week (Ramen) before payday. Guess who always got a parking spot. No matter how full that lot was he saw me coming picked up the cone so I could drive in and then told the D-Bag driving his Range Rover to keep going. Sorry a Range Rover jerk cut me off today so I hate those cars tonight.

I went to book my hotel and it was full. I called and asked the kid who answered if they had any accessible rooms available. He put me on hold. I only give about 30 seconds to hold. I got a life to live. Don’t expect me to sit around waiting for you to get to me. I’m FknBucky. I wait for none. Plus I knew if I called after 3, Zach would be working, and he gets it done. They are booked full he told me, and then said hang on. I gave him a few extra seconds. Sure enough my usual room (No you don’t get to know the number) would be ready when I arrived. The rate online is $171, but I paid $125. I always say “be kind to people”, treat everyone with respect (because they deserve it until they prove otherwise), and slow down sometimes. Notice people that you may have looked past in prior days. Your life will improve over night, you will be happier, and you’ll be a great role model for the kids watching you.

I feel better. I have this wheelchair I picked up from a Veteran that has a broken bracket. I usually put these on, but sometimes the VA uses an outside vendor. I have no choice, but they put this bracket on incorrectly. I thought it was a couple bolts and done, but once I started looking close at it I realized I had to take it all apart and start over. I spent 4 hours jacking around with it. The first couple trying to fix it without doing a whole rebuild. Waste of time. I could have added the bolts and it would work for a while, but I can’t do that. That voice in my head says “Don’t you cut corners Bucky” which is simply the way I’ve been programmed.

Not sure what to call this blog. Maybe we can use this to be a reminder telling us to be kind to one another. You don’t know what someone’s past is. The hardships at home that a co-worker never talks about. You just never know. A moment in my life that I will never forget was an afternoon in Solana Beach. I got off on Lomas Sante Fe rd and there is always traffic in Cali. I was 8 cars back when the light turned green and the lead car didn’t move. After a few seconds I was screaming I would kill their children like any sane person would do. I mean three seconds at a green light. Everyone was honking, yelling, and threatening. I was 8th in line so unless they had a huge litter of children I wasn’t going to get one. I was mad at that as well. People started going around them. The reality was it was only a 10 second delay, but hey don’t put me on hold with your car either!! As I passed the stopped car my heart dropped. I will never forget the image. Ever. The driver was maybe 25 and I would guess her Mom was in the passenger seat. Both of them were sobbing. Not crying. Sobbing. Whatever news they just got destroyed them. I instantly became very ashamed at myself. 10 seconds and I lose my mind. Clearly they lost someone very close.

Slow down and take the time to talk with someone you normally do not. That good feeling you get is addicting. Be kind to the world and your life will improve.

Love Who you Are Today —- Tomorrow is not guaranteed.

FknBucky

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Nov

Great Moments

By Bucktown 7 Comments

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: anger, bad, Beach, dog, float, Fun, good, happy, Hate, Hawaii, helicopter, Life, love, moment, Moon set, nephew, No door, Oahu, opinion, sad, share, Sunset, surf, swim, Waikiki, waves, wheelchair

I’ve missed you. I have written a couple dozen blogs, but never get around to posting them. I just spent a week in Hawaii with a couple of my nephews. I’ve done a lot of cool things in my life, and I’ve done some very stupid things. It is what it is. I don’t dwell on the past or the “what if” questions that weak minded people like to waste time thinking about. It isn’t hard to change. When you start down that path of thinking, identify it, accept your reality, and then smile while moving on from the dark negative thoughts. No amount of “regret thoughts” will change your future or your present. It is a waste of energy and never ends up being a positive outcome.

I volunteer at the rehab center here in Charlotte. I go in when requested to talk with people that have recently had a traumatic injury. I change lives when I do this. It is also extremely difficult on me as I relive the accident that left me paralyzed. Recently I met with a gang member that was shot and paralyzed from the chest down like I am. He was miserable. Nothing I said made any difference to him as he was determined to stay angry and depressed. I left that encounter feeling confused. Instead of sharing my positivity with him, I picked up his negativity. I second guessed my decisions, my optimistic attitude, and started hating this wheelchair and all it represented.

I promise nothing good comes from that way of thinking. It took a few days to purge that encounter from my thoughts, but it bothered me that I let some stranger influence my mood and my life philosophy. I have a feeling I’m not the only one that falls victim to such a thing. WHY?? Why would I let that happen?? I honestly don’t know, but I will be more guarded the next time I’m in that type of situation. I’m not going to quit trying to help, but I will be more aware of taking someone else’s feelings with me. We all should. Don’t let people with no investment interrupt or influence our lives or our attitude about our lives.

This blog has taken a turn I didn’t expect, but I just start typing and let my thoughts write the message. The wisdom I’ve gained by seeing the world while sitting down can not be measured. I enjoy spending time with kids and share some of these thoughts with them. While in Hawaii I told my nephews that we accept the bad times in life in order to enjoy the great moments. A corner suite at the Marriott with ocean views on Waikiki Beach is one of those amazing moments in life. We can’t change the past so learn the lessons from it and then pay attention to your present.

I tell them to put their darn phones down and just enjoy the moment when awesome things happen. I mean take a quick video to show your friends and then put it down. Take the time to experience that moment. What does it smell like?? What sounds are around you?? Take notice of that euphoric feeling inside of you. You can lose a phone, someone can steal your property, but memories are free, you don’t need a bag to carry them, and I have a bank full of them. I will keep accepting my situation and make plans for great moments in my future.

Love who you are today. Tomorrow is not guaranteed.

FknBucky

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Jul

Squeeze those you Love

By Bucktown 4 Comments

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: anger, bad, cry, dog, early, fund, go, good, guarantee, happy, Hard, Hate, help, kids, Life, love, not fair, RIP, sad, short, try

Been too long since I’ve posted a blog. I’ve got about 10 typed up, but get sidetracked and don’t finish them. I am kind of busy, but not as busy as I like to think. Regardless of what I do, I always feel like it isn’t enough. I can give more, volunteer more, work more, mentor more, and just about everything more. It is a good/bad thing. I don’t feel satisfied or fulfilled very often, but I’m also driven to push on and keep chasing my goals/dreams. Sometimes life has a way of hitting the “reset” button and reminding us that the only important thing is spending time with people you care about.

I moved to Charlotte 7 years ago. I knew no one in this city. Verno (great friend from high school) was 1 hr away, but in the city I was alone. The guy I replaced (job) took me around for training my first week. I was living in a hotel because I hadn’t found an apartment yet. This guy and I went for beers one night when his brother (Eddie) joined us. We clicked right away and I was no longer without a friend in Charlotte. That same week they had a birthday party (the group photo is from that day) and invited me so I ended up meeting a great group of guys that like to have some beers and laugh just like me.

Eddie and Ed

Getting to know these guys I call my Married Friends (cause they are all single) was awesome. We went on a tubing trip up in the mountains drinking a lot and floating down a river. I got to know Eddie’s best friend Ed. You read that right. Ed had the same sense of humor as me and we had plenty of bad jokes to go around. I was invited to come up for poker night and went. Nobody’s home was accessible and we had stairs to navigate on the way inside. No problem early in the night. After poker was a different story. My friend Ed insisted on being the guy to help me down the stairs. A few moments later Ed and I were spooning each other in the mud with my chair rolling down a hill somewhere. Ed was a bad wheelchair helper after drinking.

Fast forward to another poker night in a different house. We ate wings, drank beers and played cards. When it was time to leave Ed wanted redemption. You know me. Lets party. There were two stairs, not seven, this time so I thought lets do this. A few moments later Ed and I were cuddling on the garage floor. Maybe he liked spooning me and this was all on purpose…. I fell slow and wasn’t hurt so it was just funny. My man Ed didn’t want the others to see cause they would bust his balls for another 5 months just like last time. He was determined to get me back in my chair on his own.

I’m fat now. I weigh more than I look like. Ed grabbed me around the waist/belly and LIFTED with all he had. He also squeezed me so hard I shit myself. I don’t think I’ve ever told anyone that part of the story. Ed thought I farted and the look on his face was the same as if someone punched him in the nose. He got a good deep whiff of the Busch Light poop that he had just squeezed out of me. I thought well that is one way to make sure he doesn’t volunteer for chair duty again…

We lost Ed. He passed away a week ago. I’d given any amount of money to have him dump me onto the floor again. I just found out today. It isn’t fair. He worked hard. Took care of his wife. Was a great father to his young kids. At the beach on vacation he fell and passed away in front of his family. The thought of it breaks my heart. When you travel and meet people like I do, it becomes easy to identify good people that are fun to be around. It made no difference how long it was since we last hung out, the moment we started talking and giving each other crap all that went away.

Ed is the only man on Earth to literally squeeze the shit out of me. I’m sure he will be remembered as a great father, great husband, great son, and great friend, but for me he will be remembered for the poop squeeze. I am sure he would want it that way. This news was my reset button. Tomorrow is not guaranteed no matter who you are, how much stuff you have, how much money you have, or any other measurement you want to bring up. Treat the people you come in contact with like it could be the last time. Be remembered for laughing, helping, loving, caring, being genuine, or my new personal favorite be remembered for squeezing the shit out of a cripple. Something tells me Ed is a on short list with that one.

This photo was taken 5 minutes before he passed. Your time here in this life is not guaranteed.

There is a GoFundMe page, link below, for his widow and kids. Please give what you can. Everyone I know can give something unless you decide to ignore others that need help. To me that is a character thing. Do what is right. My hope is to remind the people lucky enough to know Ed of how fun and funny he was. The world was better with him in it, and I truly know it is a little less bright without him. That said the memories live on forever. He is in our hearts, he is in our stories, and because of this Ed will never be forgotten.

I have an opinion on losing great people too soon or just in general. To miss someone means you had to spend time with them, get to know them, and appreciate them. To grieve for a loved one means you had the pleasure of knowing them well. The harder we grieve simply means we loved them a lot and we are blessed to have so many great memories with that loved one. Without love there is no grieving. Be proud you recognized the greatness in Ed and he felt the love from you everyday. Your love and time are the greatest gift you can give to another human. That is right. Read it again. The best gift you can give is free. Cost zero dollars.

My love and prayers to his family. There are a lot of people that will miss him dearly. I hope all of them remember Ed with happy funny stories because that is what he was. A happy funny guy.

FknBucky

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Jun

Sometimes I want to punch the world

By Bucktown 1 Comment

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: anger, bad, chair, cook, Dip, dog, enrich, fall, good, happy, July, kind, Life, love, onion, pain’, para, sad, scratch, spasm, spinach, violent, week, wheel

Look at the pretty lights Bucky and ignore the chaos around you. It worked last night for a while. I meant every word in that blog yesterday. Some days are harder than others to ”Be Present” and blam today happened. I can’t explain why life works out this way, but I can share it with you so you understand you’re not alone. Or maybe I’m hoping one of you will share a story with me so I don’t feel alone. Facebook, Instagram, Tic Tok, Paddy whack, give a dog a bone is all BS. Nobody is happy all the time and most of the photos you see from “influencers” are fake. They use your ”like” exactly the same as a politician uses your vote. To better their portfolios, enrich themselves, and once they have it they move on to the next forgetting you exist. You are now number 183,085 and nothing else.

I got sidetracked there. I got back from my magic walk last night and made a massive bowl of dip. It is my new thing. I found a recipe online to get me started and I’ve been using different things to make it my own. If you’ve ever had the pleasure to eat something I cooked you know I don’t mess around. Everything is fresh and from scratch. The Apple Pie that started this, the blueberry cheesecake, chicken tortilla soup, beef stroganoff, tator tot casserole, and don’t forget the cinnamon rolls! I use sour cream, plain yogurt, jalapeños, spinach, green onions, cucumbers, and strawberries in this masterpiece. Everything fresh and blended together with a bunch of seasonings. I’m happy to share if you want to be the coolest person at your 4th of July party. Well 2nd coolest. Everyone knows the guy or gal that shoot a bottle rocket from their butt crack is the coolest person on Earth. If you serve veggies with homemade dip while shooting a bottle rocket out of your butt is guaranteed to make you a LEGEND. Ask my brother Jer about being a LEGEND, but NEVER give him bottle rockets or a lighter.

Morning time. Always a challenge with the leg spasms. Some days they are crazier than others, but it is 100% going to be the first thing I deal with every morning. Just think if 3/4’s of your body decided to cramp at the same moment. It is violent, painful, and usually results in me falling over backwards or sideways. If I’m ”lucky” I will be able to grab a table, bed, sofa, or anything to prevent the paralyzed backflip I’m trying to do. Maybe I could do the ParaOlympics… FknBucky takes the gold in the flip over backwards to smash the back of your head onto the concrete floor. Concrete is not soft if you aren’t sure. This morning I was saved by the night stand next to my bed as it prevented the chair from going all the way over.

I now know it is going to be like that today. I get dressed and cruise out to the kitchen so I can try this awesome dip I made yesterday evening. I take GREAT CARE with the bowl of dip on my lap because of the spasms. I currently have a work bench set up in my living room because I can. I put the dip on said workbench and start looking at some emails while I’m crushing some celery and dip. It is fantastic. I’m super stoked on my awesome culinary skills. BLAM spasm. My elbow goes straight into the bowl of dip. Right in the center of it. I’m going down and grab at anything I can to stop that from happening. Everything but me falls. 3 seconds ago I was patting myself on how great the dip turned out. Now I’m wearing half of it and see the other half all over my floor. It took me a good amount of time to make that dip and now it is gone.

Anger is an emotion and in this case it can be a verb. I was sad as well. All that work. All the money spent. All the time I spent. All of it on my floor. No five second rule here. Just a massive mess that needs to be cleaned up. As you can guess leaning all the way over cleaning up dip is not the easiest task a person can do. Very frustrating. You might be asking ”What is the point here Bucky??”

There isn’t one. What is the reason my hard work is on the floor?? Sometimes life is a real jerk. Nothing you can do about that. What you can do is control your attitude and your reaction to moments like this. I could have handled it better today, but I was mad. Being mad was wasted energy though. It did nothing to better my situation as I threw something that knocked over my Grapefruit flavored Celsius. Now my remote, phone, and some paperwork is soaking wet because I threw a tantrum. Pretty stupid.

I got more ingredients today. I’ll make more. Just like yesterday I need to remember the blessings. I have a great career and own my own company, I have amazing friends, my family loves me (well most of them), I have an amazing fur friend, and most importantly I wake up everyday being FknBucky. I write and share these moments for 2 reasons. First – I want it out of my head. Once I write about a situation I can stop thinking about it. Secondly – I hope that people that read this will drop the anchors of negativity they drag around, realize crap happens to everyone, and learn to tackle their problems with a smile.

FknBucky

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Our brother Ryan Cooper is still waiting for justice. Please never stop saying his name and asking who did this?? We will learn what happened and hold that person accountable.

Jun

Be Present

By Bucktown 3 Comments

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: anger, bad, be, dog, Earth, fight, friend, Ginger, glad, good, happy, Hate, kind, Life, love, negative, Poop, positive, Present, sad, smile, trust

How you doing blog readers?? I want to start off saying thank you for supporting my dream and reading my words. I appreciate it very much. I was just out with Annie on a very hot night here in the Queen City. It is 9 PM and still almost 90 outside. I was sweating like crazy throwing the frisbee and had to use the headlight on my Companion (Scooter attachment to wheelchair/ Retail as low as $2,500) to see where to throw it. This insanely bright light also attracted every bug for a 3 block radius so that was super awesome also. I was sweating like a lady of the night in church, bugs all over, and a very happy dog that just wanted me to hurry up and throw the frisbee over and over and over.

I’m a good dog Dad and threw the frisbee many many times for the second time today actually. I put a lot of pressure on myself thinking every blog has to be the most amazing thing I’ve ever written, but that leads to me not blogging often. The person that is hardest and most demanding of me, is me. I set the bar high and will never stop trying to be better everyday. You know my philosophy of helping a stranger everyday without acknowledgement and one you may not know is I want to learn something new everyday. New skill, new word, new friend, new viewpoint, or whatever you want. To me learning is fun. I don’t understand people that refuse to read, refuse to try something different, refuse to talk to someone that disagrees with them (I mean TALK, not scream at or call names), and just grow as a person.

Zooming back from frisbee session I’m annoyed. I’m thinking the heat sucks, bugs suck, the guy in that car sucks, I hate that stupid bird over there, and not even realizing how negative my thoughts had become. I took the corner and saw downtown Charlotte all lit up which is pretty cool at night. My thought right then was “Man it is awesome being alive” and everything changed in an instant. Suddenly it wasn’t so hot, the bugs were gone, I still think the guy in the car sucks (not my fault he is a Ginger), and the bird was cool. His name was… Birds don’t have names or talk dummy. You guys/gals are gullible. ha. The reality was one simple view of the city got me back on the right path.

Life is a struggle. Accept that part of it. Fighting it or thinking somehow it will just get super easy one day is setting yourself up for guaranteed disappointment every time that nameless bird poops on your head. Hey, at least the Ginger didn’t poop on your head. My thought was I’m glad I’m present. What I mean by that is I was willing to let go of the junk and simply be present to recognize the blessings around me. I have an awesome dog, I have a great apartment in a fantastic city, I have a lot of great friends, and a wonderful family that I’m going to see in less than two weeks.

So I remind myself by writing this blog to be present in the moment. Enjoy the time we are blessed with on Earth. Be kind to others, compliment a random stranger on their shirt, shoes, car, hair, or whatever as it will make them stand a little taller and love their moment. A simple “wow, you look great today, that shirt is awesome” can make all the difference in the world to the right person. Hug your family and tell them how important they are to you. You don’t have to wait for a moment, a person, or anything to be a beacon of positivity in your life. BE THE POSITIVE.

It sounds so simple, but many many people on Earth will never get it or practice it.

Appreciate you all,

FknBucky

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The world misses you Ryan Cooper. You have not been forgotten and I pray everyday the horrible person that did this to you will be brought to justice.

Jun

A little Help

By Bucktown 1 Comment

Categories: Uncategorized
Tags: anger, bad, broke, child, cost, dog, food, fuel, gas, groceries, happy, Hate, help, hope, Hunger, inflation, kind, Life, love, money, sad, scared, station, stranger

Hello my friends. Things have been crazy lately and I don’t think it is going to be better for some time. The cost of everyday items is out of control. I paid $91 to fill my van up yesterday. Unreal. It used to be $38 not so very long ago. I am a single man (cool chick wanted) that has been blessed with the opportunity to work for myself in a business I love. I’ve worked hard to get where I am and I’m very proud of it. I have been flat broke, homeless, and very worried about how I was going to eat that day. That is a scary place to be and I don’t wish that on anyone ever. That being said I have also always worked. I got a job where I could and a few weeks later I had money in my pocket. Just work. Any job. Millions of people are happy to help a person that shows they are willing to help themselves.

I wanted to keep it short today. I know people that are on or have been on a very strict budget. Doubling fuel cost, crazy food price increases, and the inflation hurts real people right now. I don’t care if you are liberal or conservative. NO ONE should be hungry in this country. Nancy has a $30,000 freezer filled with $12 a pint ice cream. Think she spends her night stressing about your family??? No one is threatening Mitch McConnell to turn off the power due to non-payment because he had to choose between buying food and paying the power bill. They both make me sick.

I want to offer that anyone having trouble buying food to email me or contact me. No judging. No one but me and you will ever know. I don’t need a pat on the back. I filled up a guys gas tank yesterday that tried to sell me a recliner that was in the back of his truck. He asked me if I wanted to buy it for $10 as I was getting out of my van and I quickly said no and made sure he knew I wasn’t interested. Then I heard him talking to someone else saying he needed gas money to get home. I dismissed him so quickly I didn’t see the whole situation. I felt very disappointed in myself blowing off another human in need. I gave him fuel and didn’t even ask his name. It didn’t matter, but the genuine look of appreciation and relief that his plea for help was answered. The horrible situation he was in was over. A random guy in a wheelchair was in position to help and he did.

I hope all of you take a moment to help someone in need. That is the only reason I share that story. The whole point is this. I will buy you groceries. No questions asked. No thank you required. I simply want to help others in need. Don’t watch the news. There are lots of good people in the world so I urge you to pay attention to them. There are ways to send food and that is what I’ll do. Please don’t be a jerk and ask for what you don’t need. I’m not buying you beer or sending cash to anyone.

On the flip side if you are able to help those in need please let me know. I only have so much I can afford to give personally, but I know there are others out there that have the means to help. NO ONE should go hungry. Adult or child. Share this blog. Write your own. Let us share the message that good people are out there and we can help each other.

Be Kind to Everyone.

FknBucky

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Jun

Honor Them Everyday

By Bucktown 1 Comment

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Tags: anger, bad, best, brother, care, daughter, Day, dog, good, happy, Hate, hero, kind, Life, love, Memorial, parent, sad, selfless, sister, son, super, umbrella, Weekend

I am a bit late posting. Still a great point for you to think about.

Memorial Day. An important one. All days are a blessing, but on this day we as Americans honor the bravest people we will never see or meet. The men that stormed the beach in Normandy is only one example of the incredible sacrifice humans are capable of. I can’t imagine at 18 years old being told to run towards a wall of bullets. Have you ever thought about that?? I’m guessing no. You’re too busy calling strangers racist because they have different opinions than you. Do the world a favor and shelf that BS for today. I think about the kids that gave everything 90 years ago so you can stand on your pedestal and say America sucks. That being said these kids didn’t die for you to blindly follow the other side either.

No wall of bullets to charge today Bucky. How can we make a difference?? Glad you asked. Make your community better. Be a good neighbor, friend, Parent, Spouse, son, brother, daughter that used to be a son, or whatever you want. You can try to be 2nd best Uncle ever, but the top spot is all mine. Just be good to others. Not for recognition, but for the simple fact it is the right thing to do. We can all make a difference. Imagine what your life would be like if everyone on your block cared more about others than they do for themselves.

I have a point that I’m working towards here. Just trying to give you a moment to think about the military people and their families. Family. That is an awesome word. I’ve been blessed with a very big family that is amazing. It is far from perfect, but at the end of the day we are all there for each other. I don’t have children, but I spend as much time as I can with my nieces and nephews. I know a lot of people say they don’t know how to talk with kids. It is easy. Just pay attention to them. That is what we all want in life. To feel important, wanted (think kids, to be wanted as in join in the game), to feel appreciated (again kids – nice pass or catch), and all the rest. Be kind to your kids. They are the ones that will pick your nursing home.

I was playing frisbee with Annie in the park we go to daily for that purpose. We spent about an hour and half today. Lots of rest and water breaks. Right about an hour into it I see a couple dressed up as super heroes pushing their young kids in little plastic cars. Annabel was happy to show off her frisbee skills which are flipping awesome as this family walked by. I asked what was up?? I double checked before yelling out that today is not Halloween. In case you’re not sure either – it is not Halloween today. After I yelled ”Where you going??” I got the best reply. ”To save the world!!” I laughed and told them they made my day.

This parental unit took time to put the cape on, the mask on, and made sure the parent-mobile (like the batmobile, but not) had a full tank. I find this to be awesome. This is what I mean by change the world. Those kids don’t care who the President is, they just want some attention. We make the world better one super hero costume at a time. Ready for the tie in??? We honor the men and women that gave their lives for our freedom, by becoming the best version of us that we can possibly be. You can’t thank a deceased Veteran for their service. We can keep their memory alive by being great people and teaching our kids how to be great people.

It isn’t enough to throw some meat on the BBQ and chug Busch Lights for the day. We need to honor those every single day and not just some weekend to kick off summer. Become an awesome person that makes a difference in the world. Take care of your kids. Teach them they can do anything because they are blessed to have been born in the greatest country in the history of the world. Be a great friend, a great son or daughter, be a great brother or sister so that you send out great vibes every single day. I try to do amazing things for people, but I fall short many times each day, week, year, or decade.

If you never come up short that just means your goals or dreams aren’t big enough. Think about what your philosophy for life is. If I came up and asked you ”What do you want to accomplish in this life??” Do you have an answer?? I think about those that gave everything so that I can be here in America doing whatever I want. I’m free to read any books, educate myself, go where I want, vote for who I want, advocate for things that I want or things I believe would make the world better.

I know I’m a couple days late on publishing this one, but that also makes my bigger point. You don’t get to change your profile pic that says thank you Veterans for a weekend and then tuck that away until next year. Join me in honoring their memory every day by becoming the best you.

FknBucky

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