Posts Tagged ‘trouble

27
Jun
24

never ending stay…

Well….. I extended my vacation by another day. Apparently they want you to crop dust the halls after stealing a kidney, but call it passing gas to sound professional until….. I said “farting” a bunch. The doctor finally loosened up her stature, but not my bowels. TMI… I know, but I promised honesty on this blog so suck it up buttercups. By the way speaking of honesty it turns out I’m not gay. That t-shirt is a liar. My friend Nuisance (see what I did there….) told me to be sweet to the nurses, but have you ever heard of a 24 hour restraining order??? Me either. Who knew asking her if she wanted to stick around and snort some of my meds with me was such a big deal…….. A couple lines of stool softener makes for one heck of a story later.

The TV is crap. The channels are 74-1, 74-2, 74-3, and on and on. I don’t know what that means. I have watched two westerns about a guy killing other guys over a woman. Both of them, but different guys dying from another guy killing them. I think the woman might be my stuck up crazy nurse. She would drive anyone to do some killing. She happens to be one that watched on as the others killed me on my last stay here. No joke there. She is sticking with the panic/anxiety story saying “Well you have anxiety when you’re dying.”

I can’t think of a truer statement. Just remember if you check out from not being able to breathe with 93% of your lung filled with fluid, it is the panic that did it. Can’t believe I was so stupid to think otherwise.

My kidney drain.

Might be yet another day. Got an issue with the kidney drain, and I’m not kidneying around.

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FknBucky

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05
Dec
22

I want my gift now!!

Content. Gotta keep up the content. I heard a quote yesterday that really hit me from multiple angles and if I can keep my “shiny” in check I will talk about this quote. Quick note though as I was watching Thursday Night Football and listened to the MassHole crowd booing the home team. Seriously??? You have been on a winning streak never before seen in Pro Football, but you boo the team responsible for many a great night the second something doesn’t go your way. Losing makes winning taste so much better. The feeling of accomplishment that comes after trying and failing over and over and over is very special. You can only earn it. Can’t buy it, steal it, or beg for it. You simply have to put yourself out there every day with a huge middle finger to anyone that says “You can’t do that!”

We set ourselves up for losing before the game even starts. It is crazy to me how often I hear people complain about something they haven’t even started. How do you know it sucks if you haven’t done it??? Okay, I’m pretty sure prison sex is not fun for the new guy so that would be an exception to the knowing it sucks without trying category. The mindset before the fight is as important as the battle itself. I’m not smart enough, I don’t have lots of money, I’m out of shape, I’m disabled (I eff’ing hate that word FYI) I’m a girl, I’m gay, or any of the excuses you allow yourself to have. YOU give these BS excuses to yourself which is stupid and unnecessary, but it is cool because that means you can drop that crap off right now. None of those will aid you in reaching your goals/dreams so why in the heck do you drag them along your life path.

Now that you’ve unloaded all the needless baggage you find yourself in neutral. Just walking along the line in middle land. Middle land also sucks. It is boring and you’re better than that. You need to get your mind into the Nothing can stop me, if you’re not smart – read books and get smart, if you are ugly, hang out with uglier people so you become the hot one, you have no money – learn to save money and stop spending half your paycheck on beer and weed. Here comes biggie so read slow and pay attention. Take that stupid dumb-butt chip off your shoulder. Stop crying about race, sexuality, gender, and all the other crap that simply holds you down. You want to carry that excuse with you fine, but I’m not waiting for you. Those things can only hurt you if you allow it.

The quote I heard is this “Pain is a Gift” which blew my mind. Pain sucks. I don’t want pain. A gift from Satan maybe. What kind of moron thinks pain is a gift?? This moron. I thought about writing these points in crayon so you could understand it better. How awesome would it be going into battle with a smile on your face thinking I’m ready for you. I’ve been overcoming crap my whole life and you “Mr Problem” can’t do a darn thing because I’m prepared. What comes from hardships?? What do we really end up with when it is over?? I’ll tell you. Wisdom. Strength. Self Confidence. Experience. Yeah those things are pretty cool.

Here you are. The only warrior in your own personal army. There is no back up. Can’t radio for an air strike. Faster you realize it is on you to handle it, the sooner you overcome it and move on. Imagine running towards the hardship. I accept I can’t go around you so now I’m going to fight. Don’t wait. Pick up a stick and sprint towards it with an enormous smile because you know when this is over you’ll be a better, stronger, more valuable human. I’ll take two of those if you can buy this at CVS. Never happen, you like everyone before you and like everyone after you has to earn those things.

Pain is a gift. An opportunity to test your skills and strengths. I know in reality these are just words and facing pain in the real world sucks. A failed relationship, fired from a job, losing a hand, becoming paralyzed, losing a loved one, or any other situation that is sure to cause hardships. When you start with a deep breath and say “I can do this” you start out ahead instead of telling yourself “Oh man, this sucks, it will be so hard, no one will help me, I can’t cope with this, I’ll just ignore it for a few weeks, or any other excuse you let yourself use.

The world needs warriors. I am one. I’m not perfect. FAR FAR from it, but I fear no challenge or hardship. I have practiced my whole life for game day. I’ve accepted the wisdom one gets from failing. I own my mistakes. You can’t learn a valuable lesson if you refuse to admit you screwed up.

As Always: Love Who You Are Today, Tomorrow is not Guaranteed!!

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